Dang it!!

Damn Costco!! When you work at a medium sized office we tend to get local vendors that come to the office and try to get us to sign up for something or be a member of something....well our yearly visit from Costco came yesterday.

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE Costco! Love it to its fullest.  I have spent a lot of money at that place including TVs, refrigerators, washers and dryers and my beloved 10ft Christmas tree...but since we have moved out to Winder, we gave up our membership to try and stay away and save a little...we only go when desperate because there are too many temptations there.

Well when they come to the office they also bring samplings of stuff....well during this transformation into a healthy me, I have cut WAY back on my breads (which I believe got me into the way I am/was).  But Costco has the most fabulous croissants. OMG...buttery, soft....and YUP the sales lady brought them...grr!!
To make things worse!  There was a flat left over (12 dang yummies) and I brought it home <insert the reasoning that the family loves them here>...and I broke down and ate one with my very large and fabulous salad at dinner....UGH!!

Come to think about it, I didn't blame it on Costco last night....I blamed it on a swift kick to my heart.  Here is a funny (well I think its funny/revelating) for ya.  When growing up I always had the aspirations to be in medicine, which I am...but my ultimate goal was to be a doctor.  I wrote a paper in 5th grade about how I wanted to either be an obstetrician or work with sports teams.  Of course, life hands you different routes to be travelled and I at least work in one of those areas.  At my office, we are getting a new obstetrician/gynecologist.  She is very bright and energetic and while adding her information to our facebook fan page last night I noticed her birth year....1981....and I swear it felt like I had the wind knocked out of me.  That could have been me...AND we will have a doctor at the office that is freaking YOUNGER than me!  I felt very slackerish....because I haven't yet fulfilled my dreams of a BSN, MSN...and I'm already 31 and rapidly approaching 32.  So the croissant was to comfort me and my heart in my agonizing realization....then I decided...new body and healthy life need to comes first...then work on the other dream....and I need to remember that ONE DAY I will have it all :)